Harper Murray, the standout outside hitter for the Nebraska volleyball team, seemed to have it all – incredible talent, a loving family, and a chance to lead her team to championship glory. But behind the highlight reels and social media posts, the 19-year-old star was secretly battling inner demons that threatened to derail her promising career and bright future.
In a raw and honest interview, Murray opens up about her struggles with mental health, a DUI arrest, a shoplifting charge, and the immense pressure she felt to live up to expectations. Her courageous story sheds light on the often-hidden challenges faced by college athletes and offers hope to others who may be struggling in silence.
Hitting Rock Bottom
After a devastating loss to Texas in the 2023 NCAA championship match, Murray found herself spiraling into despair. Harsh comments on social media made her doubt herself as a player and a person. “I hated volleyball, I hated myself, I couldn’t find anything positive in my life at all,” she recalls tearfully.
Overwhelmed by anxiety and depression, Murray turned to alcohol to numb the pain. In April 2024, she was arrested for DUI. Barely a month later, she was caught shoplifting. At her lowest point, Murray’s family feared for her life. “My sister Kendall was scared I would end my own life,” she admits. “It was the wake-up call I needed.”
The Road to Healing
Determined to overcome her challenges, Murray entered therapy and began the difficult but transformative journey of self-discovery and healing. She attended a life-changing retreat in Utah, opened up to her teammates about her struggles, and slowly learned to love herself and the game again.
“I think a lot of my healing process is learning to love volleyball again. And I think that will come when I learn to love myself more too.”
– Harper Murray
With the support of her coaches, teammates, and a mental health team, Murray is now focused on regaining trust, recapturing her passion, and using her platform to help others facing similar battles. She knows the road ahead won’t be easy, but she’s determined to emerge stronger than ever.
Hope for the Future
As Murray prepares for her sophomore season, she’s filled with gratitude for the little girls who still look up to her, the community that has embraced her, and the opportunity to chase her championship dreams once more. Her journey is a testament to the power of vulnerability, the importance of mental health, and the incredible resilience of the human spirit.
“I’m learning to appreciate all the people who are for me instead of the few who are against me. They’re the ones keeping me going now.”
– Harper Murray
Harper Murray’s story is far from over, but one thing is certain – she’s determined to use her struggles and triumphs to make a difference, on and off the court. As she steps back into the spotlight, she does so with a newfound sense of purpose, ready to inspire others with her courage, honesty, and unbreakable spirit.
